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political rant on guns [19 Apr 2013|11:56am]
[ mood | upset ]

I don’t know how it happened, but somehow I got signed up for receiving emails from a Republican senator. And after what happened earlier this week, he decided to write an email to explain WHY he voted against the gun laws. The senator in question is Mike Lee from Utah.
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lmao XD [05 Mar 2013|06:05pm]


So my bf and I were discussing this image, and he goes "and I'm sure this counts for gay guys as well!"
Me, being confused, ask "How?"
And he answers "If I were gay and my gay lover comes over with beer, I would go "Please come in, my dear!""

LOL. All I could do now was imagine my bf with a man.
Yay for open-minded significant others <3
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[05 Mar 2013|08:56am]
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My name is Soccer, I am 11 years old and I live in Livingston.


  • Interests

    1. Trying to fly away with the grackles

    2. Playing with my swing secretly

    3. Sitting on my owners' arms

  • Favorite toys

    1. My green ladder

    2. The giant fluff thing

    3. The swing

  • Hobbies

    1. Sleeping

    2. Pruning

    3. Eating

  • Favorite foods

    1. Millet

    2. Sunflower seeds

    3. Cheerio-style foods


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[25 Feb 2013|12:17pm]
Whelp. I started really liking bara. XD thanks to bldl. So now I only want to scanlate/read stuff that... has a bara-esque storyline. Meaning: devoid of girly men, and rape, and all those other "lovely" yaoi stereotypes.

In other news: I want a job. =__= but at the same time I don't. Ugh it's so depressing to see my friend do so well in the research group I left in May, that he's already flying to Japan for the meeting... he's only a 3rd year, that's freaking awesome. Makes me think I should have stayed with the group, but on the other hand, I know that I wouldn't be doing well cus I'd be stuck under a prof that was never there / preoccupied with other students.

Basically, I'm in denial that I left academia. I'm afraid of taking on any old job because... it cannot compare to the awesome job I had before at the fore-front of science. -__-; ughhh. Well anyway, next month I will be going to a job fair, at which there will be plenty of teaching positions that I may apply to. Teaching... well it's ok, I just have no confidence that I'll be able to handle high schoolers. I just hope they'll give me a chance, even though I'm young, inexperienced, and talk softly. XD

I'm kind of in limbo right now. Some people keep telling me I have a luxury problem, but I really don't see it that way:
Basically, this job fair will be mid-March, then in April I'll hear back from graduate school, and in May I'll hear back from the European Space Agency. So now comes the question. What if I get a job at the job fair, do I take it and basically throw away my other choices (because if I take it, I really can't back out)? Or do I reject it and then have everything riding on those last 2 choices? And what if I get into Rutgers, for which the deadline for acceptance is before ESA? -__- of course, the job I want the most is the ESA position, because I love working with astrophysics. Not only that, I get to move to Holland, expenses are paid, I can bring my partner along, and he gets sponsored for a visa. Awesome job huh? XD and it's just an internship.
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hehe [09 Feb 2013|07:51pm]
I went outside just now, but sadly the snow has turned into powder during the day, because it was so cold. :\
However, the snow melted just enough that it created giant ice sheets right outside of the stairs to our apartment, LOL



Keep in mind these are covered stairs... all of this was blown in. XD
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[23 Dec 2012|09:28am]
<3 having so much fun at home!!! On Friday after work we made our way over to my parents' town, my sister had gotten home earlier that day from DC where she visited a friend. <3 hadn't seen her in 5 months!!! But it feels like I've always seen her, so awesome.
Anyway when we got home and I checked my mail, found out I got a traffic ticket. Turns out during thanksgiving I made a right turn on red where it wasn't allowed (but I can't even find the "no turn on red" sign on the pictures they took!!!) and I got a nice big ticket. =__= So annoying. Turns out they changed it for 3 intersections in that town in March and emailed all the inhabitants of the town for weeks, but didn't put the signs up. How is that legal? In Holland the police department would have sued the state already, before anyone even noticed it.

But anyway. We decorated the house a bit, and on Saturday I made some complicated origami (the Yoda figure) and succeeded :D seriously, it's hard to persevere when origami isn't working right, but when it does in the end it makes you feel so good XD We also set up the Christmas tree <3 so it looks all nice in the house! Soccer is happy too, with so many people. (5 compared to 2)
Tonight my cousins are arriving from Holland. One of them is staying in a hotel in NYC, the other is coming home with us. (they're rich. XD)

Monday: Miem still has to work, everyone else is off work
Tuesday: Linda is going to visit Kevin in Philly
Wednesday: Josh has to go to work, Linda and Kevin are coming here
Thursday: Josh has to work
Friday: Josh has to work
Saturday: nothing~
Sunday: time for presents!!! <3 :D we will have 8 people in the house.
Monday: Josh has to work XD poor guy
Tuesday: 2013~ and Josh is finally off work again.
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[02 Dec 2012|11:13pm]
[ mood | happy ]

We went to a nearby park today, here are some pics :D

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[20 Nov 2012|10:02am]
[ mood | impressed ]

Oh yeah so, let's update this. o_o lots of stuff happened.

Josh got the flu, and it was that day that I learned about the hurricane coming our way. Surprise! So I had very limited time to get all the stuff ready. In the end I couldn't get gas because the lines were already around the block on Sunday. On Monday Josh actually went to work in the morning, and it was pretty scary driving with that wind! The river had already started flooding the road near his work.
That night the hurricane hit, just a ton of wind and of course we lost power at 6PM, in the middle of cooking. We spent the rest of the time in bed cus it was cold. :\ no heat.
Tuesday, we spent the day sleeping, trying to stay warm, playing board games, used up our laptop batteries pretty fast. Our fridge was already warmer than room temperature. -__-
Wednesday morning we drove to Josh's work, but found the whole industrial complex completely deserted. There were giant puddles in every parking lot, not a good sign with a storm that barely brought any rain... And there was no one at his work, so we left. We then learned my parents had firewood so we went over to their house and stayed there one night. It was nice :3 better than staying in our cold apartment XD
Thursday we went back home because Josh thought he may have to work, but when he called his work turns out they really had massive flooding there and in the surrounding area from the Hackensack river. (Later we found out it had been several feet, and the water was still standing in the bottom drawers of desks, all the equipment and stuff was damaged, people lost their computers etc... not pretty.) Later that afternoon we heard that my parents got power back!!! So we immediately grabbed a ton of stuff and went back to my parents. It was really cold XD
So anyway we stayed there for the whole weekend, Josh's coworkers were calling him every day to keep updated. My parents didn't have telephone/internet because of a downed tree destroying the fios cable, but they did immediately fix the voltage cable, which is why they had power. This is when Josh started coughing, and we were pretty worried about how he was doing :\ I helped my mom with raking the leaves outside, basically all the leaves came down at once and it took us half the day even with an electrical blower XD
Anyway, the library in my parents' town had internet & power so on Sunday we went to check whether Josh was actually registered to vote, and where. Turns out that even though he registered to vote in our town several weeks before the storm, they had not changed it and he was still registered in his parents' town. But we also found out he could ask for a ballot via email, so we attempted that. The county clerk office told him there were so many requests they couldn't keep up and would send it by Nov 9th, which means they'd have to do a recount. In the end we never got the ballot XD I guess the election wasn't close enough in our area.
Gas was a serious problem, you either had to sit in line for 2 hours at 7am or you wouldn't get any. On top of that, cash only. XD We did manage to get $20 from an ATM, but many others didn't have any bills. We still had barely enough to get home, but we did waste a bit of gas standing in line. On Monday night Josh got a call from his coworker saying they were expected to get back to work on Wednesday, so we went back home. Halfway when we arrived in Newark we found tons of gas stations open and no lines! So it was really a local problem.
Then on Tuesday Josh gets a call saying work is actually cancelled, but it wasn't that big a deal cus we had power and internet at our apartment. :D On Wednesday since his coughing is still there he went to the doctor, who said he probably has bronchitis. Gets an inhaler and antibiotics. I worked at the preschool that day. If I remember correctly, this is when the Nor'easter hit us and it was snowing most of the day and night. We got about 2 inches.
Thursday finally back to work, but only half the day, because the place is pretty much ruined and everyone was sitting upstairs in a tiny office.
Friday I get the car serviced and then drive Josh to the urgent care to get his lungs checked out, turns out he got pneumonia. o_o the whole weekend spent in bed with him coughing like crazy and not able to breathe.
He stays at home improving day by day until Wednesday when he wants to go to work for half the day. Thursday his boss told him there's not enough for him to do for him to come into work, so we go to Ikea and get a couch! :D We get it delivered that evening.
Friday Josh sets up the couch and I do shopping and stuff. We also work on making the apartment look presentable. Baked cookies!
Saturday we go to shul for the first time in 4 weeks or so. o_o Sunday morning cleaning etc. In the afternoon my parents came by to visit, and bring Soccer over. They're going over to my sister in Virginia for Thanksgiving, and leaving Soccer with us :3

Wow what a long entry.

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[08 Sep 2012|09:25pm]
[ mood | weird ]

Tonight is my last night at home~ unbelievable. I really enjoyed slacking off at home, but I think this will be it for me. I'm already 24, gotta get my life on track XD

Tomorrow we're dropping our stuff off at our new apartment, and then we're going to Josh's sister's wedding, after which we're staying in a hotel :3 and then on Monday morning we have to drive back!

Today there was a massive thunderstorm and tornado warning for my area. Right as we were moving stuff to the car it got really bad, but luckily we managed to get inside RIGHT on time. The wind picked up a lot all of a sudden and a branch the size of a tree came down in our backyard (we have a really old white oak in our backyard). There was also a gust of wind that just did something really weird in the street, jerked the trees back and forth. Luckily that was the only gust. :S not used to those kinds of things here.

Also holy shit I can make leather armor in fallout new vegas?? *goes off to playing*

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[03 Aug 2012|12:02pm]
[ mood | confused ]

I think grad school changed me, and I don't like it. I used to be much more bubbly and excitable XD but now I've become much calmer and very serious all the time. So annoying!

Anyway, loving words-with-friends on facebook! :D

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How I feel in a nutshell [16 Feb 2012|10:00am]
[ mood | amused ]

In graduate school, we have this thing we call “imposter syndrome” — the gnawing fear that you don’t really belong there, that you don’t have what it takes, that you somehow slipped through the cracks in the admissions process and are actually an intellectual embarrassment, an incompetent fraud who knows jack-all about anything — and that sooner or later, like the Wizard of Oz, you will be found out and exposed for the humbug you really are.

(via mylifeasagradstudent)

Exactly how I feel. It's good to know others are feeling the same way I am, lol XD
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The awesomest song ever [06 Feb 2012|10:20am]

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[14 Sep 2011|10:20pm]
[ mood | overworked ]

Ok it's been a while since I posted. There's a TON of stuff that I want to rant about, like all the republicans surrounding me, and the lack of support for female physics grad students, and how hard my classes are, and how crazy my quantum prof is, but it's pretty late right now XD
The one thing I do want to mention is that I'm going to NJ to visit my parents from Dec 18th through the 2nd of January! Looking forward to it, I miss our bird!!! Josh will also be joining me but for only one week, since he barely gets any time off... a true American job... I really want to move to Europe! :3

Anyway I can't wait for the weekend. Josh has been working like crazy this week, since his company is in production this week. Going in at 7am and yesterday he didn't get out until 9PM, today not until 7:30PM. He doesn't get paid for overtime. It's kind of crazy. And my hours are from 9AM till about 8PM every day after which I do homework, so we only really "see" each other the 4 hours we spend in bed together sleeping XDDD man how depressing! Let this week be over sooon!!!

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[28 Aug 2011|03:05pm]
[ mood | distressed ]

I'm so sick of graduate school! This semester I'll be working nearly 60 hours a week, on less than 20k a year. Several people have been kicked out of my research group because there is no money and they "didn't work hard enough". I am one of those people kicked out for lack of money, and I'm actually waiting for someone to tell me I didn't work hard enough this summer XD Hasn't happened yet...
I failed the common exam, as expected, which is also putting me at a disadvantage. But what is the most annoying is that the people replacing the graduate students that were kicked out are NON-graduate students. They are here at the U working for our group because they couldn't find a real job and are not yet in grad school. What the heck??
Eh whatever, I kind of want to get a real job and get out of here, I'm so sick of dealing with professors and homework and grading and UGH. This summer was nice because I could work a nice solid 40 hours a week, nothing more, nothing less. Nice 9-5 work hours... man I'm envious of people who get to have those hours now XD My hours are going to be something like 9 - 9 every day! D: then add homework on top of that. In classes that use books by Landau & Lifschitz and Jackson.

Maybe I should go to the office and ask what would happen if I changed from a PhD to a Masters student. It really wouldn't surprise me if in the near future they found better grad students and kicked me out of the group, especially since even JP was kicked out! He's been working here for forever and knew what was going on, just like me, and that's the only thing I have going for me. Sigh. I should go into IT, get a nice high-paying job, and enjoy my life. :3

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contemplations [18 Aug 2011|03:17pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

As a graduate student, you spend most of your time in limbo. A lot of the time you're wondering whether you're good enough to work on a certain project or to teach a certain class. At other times, you are being held back by examinations or defenses. Most of the time you are being ordered around by your committee. You worry - especially in this bad economy - whether you will be able to stay with your group, and whether you can pay your rent and food this month with the measly about you make.

It's even worse than having a job, because you can get fired at any point! No unions to back you up, no contracts... it's all a privilege to work as a slave at the hand of professors and researchers. (It kind of is, working in research labs is awesome...)

Someone I know is being kicked out of the group I work at, because of lack of money. They gave her a date, August 31st, and are kicking her out. She can't stay at the university either because she can't get a TA. She's actually almost done... I think she does have to start writing her thesis though, so not entirely. They're kicking me out too, for this semester, also because of lack of money. I'm starting to doubt my decision to stay in the US for grad school. Ok great a PhD from a US school is mostly better than any others, but at this rate I think that will change. With such a lack of funding, how can research groups survive?

What would I do outside of grad school? Becoming a teacher might be fun, but I'm not sure. There are also a lot of other things that I enjoy doing, like coding, learning new languages, art... If I were in Europe I wouldn't mind even working at a zoo or something XD or at an animal rescue center, or goodness knows what. Health insurance and other things are not an issue there, since you get them for living there! Man my whole life would be FUN. Not the everyday worries of living in the US. The government is like a black cloud hanging over us poor / lower / middle class folks, and it really puts a damper on us.

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What Is Happening to Women’s Rights? [03 Jul 2011|08:51pm]
2 Fetuses Called As Witnesses in Ohio Court. Say What?
posted by Lissa Rankin Jul 1, 2011 9:03 am

Original: http://www.care2.com/greenliving/2-fetuses-called-as-witnesses-in-ohio-court-say-what.html#ixzz1R6KdVas2

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[19 Jun 2011|02:17pm]
[ mood | confused ]

Happy Father's day!!! I really wish I could spend this day with my family, but I'm stuck here in Utah :(

My trip to Austria.... awesomeness :3 Sadly I got sick right after I got back, with the flu. :( But anyway, "some" pictures on my sister's flickr: http://www.flickr.com/photos/51788486@N07/sets/72157626968407920/

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[08 Mar 2011|07:07pm]
[ mood | gloomy ]

Top 10 Worst Things about the Republicans' Immoral Budget

The Republican budget would:

1. Destroy 700,000 jobs, according to an independent economic analysis.

2. Zero out federal funding for National Public Radio and public television.

3. Cut $1.3 billion from community health centers—which will deprive more than 3 million low-income people of health care over the next few months.

4. Cut nearly a billion dollars in food and health care assistance to pregnant women, new moms, and children.

5. Kick more than 200,000 children out of pre-school by cutting funds for Head Start.

6. Force states to fire 65,000 teachers and aides, dramatically increasing class sizes, thanks to education cuts.

7. Cut some or all financial aid for 9.4 million low- and middle-income college students.

8. Slash $1.6 billion from the National Institutes of Health, a cut that experts say would "send shockwaves" through cancer research, likely result in cuts to Alzheimer's and Parkinson's research, and cause job losses.

9. End the only federal family planning program, including cutting all federal funding that goes to Planned Parenthood to support cancer screenings and other women's health care.

10. Send 10,000 low-income veterans into homelessness by cutting in half the number of veterans who get housing vouchers this year.

We've got to get the word out about this awful budget—right away. Please, share this with your friends on Facebook and Twitter today.

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[10 Feb 2011|10:42pm]
[ mood | high ]

I'm starting to come to terms with this whole "graduate school" thing. Teaching is fairly easy, classes are not too bad this semester, and I get to spend quite a bit of time at home. I may not get much help from my classmates, but with the right perspective that actually doesn't bother me all that much. I really do work much better by myself, so that actually helps XD

In other news, my adviser/PI/lab teacher came up to me today to explain that it took a technician plus 4 phds to solve a problem we were having with the vacuum chamber... Silly people that we were, we didn't realize that yes, at sea level a pressure of 1 atm would be usable... but we're at freaking 4500 feet here XDDD I had quite a moment there when he told me that... seriously, FOUR HOURS of trying to fix a machine that WASN'T BROKEN. Unbelievable.

All the exams that didn't have names on them have been accounted for, thankfully. Now I just still have piles of exams of people who didn't write their TAs name... so for some reason I got them all XD but so far no one has asked for any of them so I guess those are people who never come to class.

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[08 Dec 2010|10:17pm]
So for years I have been wondering how I should properly start up running seriously.
My dad runs but he's at the half marathon level, and my sister was a track star in high school, so they were just way too advanced. Whatever advice they gave me I always assumed to be geared towards more experienced runners.
Then I tried doing those "beginner" running schedules, which require running outside in a way that's 1 minute running, 2 minutes walking. I could never get used to this rhythm, and since I tried running it with my rather big-boned ex, I gave up rather fast.

But this is going to change, noaw. :3 I realized that doing one of those "beginner" runs isn't quite for me, because I guess I'm not a beginner anymore. So what I need to do is run 6 days a week, a few days hard, a few days slow, and increase mileage by 10% every week.

/motivational speech
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